Being With Pain


Illness. Pain. The mind wants solutions… suggesting… trying… what if this, what if that…. it wants to escape the body pain… now! It’s so persistent in its quest to stop this actual ‘what is’ state. Jibber-jabbering away wanting to be helpful. I’m sitting here watching it do its thing… creating fear, scary thought, anxiety stories, all kinds and varieties of stories. I used to resist the mind and the body and the stories, but that just kept me tethered even more. So, I watch it do its thing. Jibber-jabber… when will it?… what if?… stop me in my tracks writhe, grimace involuntarily; disapprove of it as I’m sending it love and approval; call out to Uriel, Lester, god god god, a friend… what a cacophonous symphony. Not a distraction. Not to be denied, ignored, or by-passed. But to have the courage to dive into the apparent chaos where peace, pain, noise, silence, whatever-ness, and all of it resides. This is the challenge of illness… and life.
Courage to be with all of it, and to let it be all of what it is. Until it isn’t.
mu, 02/15/2016

Ojai, CA

Love is All – INclusive

  
BE AWARE that any reframing or reinterpretation of what is perceived as ‘negative’ or ‘unloving’ by the mind into anything other than what it is in the moment — including into a picture or language of positivity, is resistance. Resistance is in opposition to allowance of All — of the Allness. Allowance of All is Love. Needing or wanting to reframe or reinterpret anything in language or thought is simply another face of FEAR perspective where there can be no true all-encompassing consciousness of Love. Fear does not equal love, but paradoxically is encompassed within Love.

Loving it All and not wanting or having to reframe or reinterpret through ANY lens, including a lens of Love, is an awakened state of BEing, which paradoxically (not) INcludes another’s need or want to reinterpret anything.

Repression, resistance, denial of ANYthing you perceive is not a highly-evolved awakened end state. I see many people stopping there in a psuedo feel-good state because they have convinced themselves if it feels “good” it is the be all end all. But does it really feel “good”? The mind is very convincing, but if one is courageously and fearlesly honest with oneself and peels away layers to get to what is real and true in the moment, the stuff that is being resisted, denied and repressed is still right there and always will be. But you *can* get to a state where it doesn’t matter either way. Impeturbability. Supreme Peace.

Consciousness knows when you are lying to it or forcing something on it that is not AUTHENTIC. Do you want an Authentically True Peace? Resistance and reinterpretation is not the way, but like all things and states, it can be a step on the way. (There really is no hierarchical linear ‘stepping’ anyway… but this is the language we use to paint a picture).

It is currently trendy to talk about and “teach” the philosophy of “It’s all goodness and love and light the rest is illusion,” but there is something even more all-inclusive and wonderful beyond that intellectual understanding and linguistic/behavioral modification practice.

Stop trying to bullshit yourself and your mind. Bullshitting a bullshitter (the mind) is futile. And Consciousness is not stupid. Let go of judging anything as good/bad, right/wrong, dark/light, negative/positive. Go beyond your desiring, wanting, or needing to re-interpret anything you perceive. Allow it to Be as it shows up.

Ultimately, WE the One Consciousness and “Love” (but not the limited human concept and construct of what love is). We can call it Love, God, Dog, Lala Land, or any other manmade word. We are/It is all there is INcluding anything perceived as being ‘other than’ Itself. Soak that up. Revel in that.

Love includes all things your mind tells you it is not.

Reinterpreting is unecessary. This is what an Awakened Consciousness Revolution is about.

♡ mu ♡

Ojai, CA

09/30/2015

Love Heroes

  

I had a bittersweet day. I was writing a chapter in a book I’ve been working on about a soulmate. When I’m writing it, I’m living it. That can be both beautiful and heart-wrenching.

Without him, my soul felt bruised. All of the clichés applied. He felt it too. He said, “You’ve ruined it for me… being with anyone else.” I felt the same. Ruined or not, sometimes Life has other ideas, and soul bruises don’t heal like regular bruises. They’re not supposed to. They stick around to remind us how fucked, I mean, how lucky we got. We actually had “it”, and we still have “it”, and how unbelievably amazing “it” is when “it’s” Real. 

Real doesn’t mean for as long as our bodies exist. It’s beyond time and space like We are. Real is right now, AND then, AND always without end Infinitely. How cool is that? And my god, that we actually go on to love again… and again, even with a bruised soul and an ever-so-slightly abridged version of our heart. That’s heroic. We are Love Heroes.

Today was a bruised and bittersweet day. How fucking amazing is that? 

– mu

July, 2015

Ojai, CA

RESOLATION 

  
“To have a fulfilling relationship you have to relate…” ~ Deepak Chopra 

It’s been true in my experience. All types of relationships. Ever tried forcing ‘RESOLATION’? (Resonate/relate. I just made that word up) It won’t work. It’s there or it isn’t. That may or may not shift and morph over time as all the Cosmic cogs do their/our thing. But, I don’t hang around waiting for that may or may not to happen. I let go of what doesn’t resolate and know it’s all perfect. 

For example, have you ever tried resolating with a true Narcissist? It’s not happening. And this is coming from the mouth of an Idealist. I believe/know anything is possible — I see it. 
You can’t authentically ‘relate’ with a Narcissist, because it’s all about ‘them’ in all ways all of the time. Where is the space to resolate there? There isn’t any. And trying to make it happen when you don’t or can’t is like paddling against the current up Shit Creek. 

I have found it best to surrender to the will of the resolation gods and drop the paddle. Let the stream float me away… to that which is resolating with me for Real. 

Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily…

– mu

July 26, 2015

Ojai, CA 

The Petri Dish of Suffering

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“The most authentic thing about us is our capacity to create, to overcome, to endure, to transform, to love and to be greater than our suffering.”
~ Ben Okri

This life is full of tragedy and loss. Sometimes, it is challenging to wrap the mind around it, and painful to wrap the heart around it. What a trip… what a ride.

To ignore the sorrow or tragic aspects of the Whole, and attempt to “be” or see only the easy soft lovely ‘beautiful’ parts; to deny the juicy messy ‘ugly’ painful parts, is life only partially tasted, partially lived. It is unawakened or partially awakened believing it is fully awakened. When we transcend, even if only for a moment in time (literally) we then know it is all part of the deal. Not just some of it. ALL of it. It is then that the shadow, painful, tragic aspects, can also be seen as ‘beautiful’ if one chooses.

We are here right now in the midst of an earthly physical/mental firestorm day-to-day. How we think, act and react to whatever is, has been, or will be — including the tragedies, losses and suffering in our lives and the lives of our extended earthly family, is the material realm petri dish where TRUE heroes, TRUE sages, TRUE awakened and enlightened beings are born… again and again and again.

No human is excluded from this experiment, so let’s each, from wherever we are right now, consciously love one another in our individual and collective suffering. And let’s be courageous and embrace a little of the shadow aspects of our individual and collective humanity today — even if we weep until the sun rises tomorrow.

– mu

July 17, 2014

 

 

Sadhu: A Precious Gift

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A subtle shift of focus… the precious gifts…

My missing Sadhu (our loyal 14 year old dog son) in the physical is overshadowed by the precious gifts. The gift of his presence in my life. The blessing of knowing he is free and infinitely part of All now. Unbounded. No longer apparently limited by the physical body. That gives me a profound sense of peace and bittersweet joy, just as it did in the moment of his leaving. Being fully present with each gut-wrenching second of all of it as I sang him to sleep for the last time. No regrets. No if-onlys. No what-ifs for me…or for him. It was all said. All shared. All known and felt. A good-bye gift.

The Love remains in hearts eternally connected. The gift that keeps on giving. Through all of our hellos and our goodbyes, that’s what this life is all about. – mu, June 6, 2014

 

The Sliver of Light

Somewhere…where troubles melt like lemon drops…
Amidst these and other challenging times, past, future, now, we can tune into the pulsing electric current of our own persistent, relentless beating heart that knows how to keep on. We can focus on the little glimmer, the tenacious glint within the shadow, the sliver of light that is always always there… somewhere.

Faith, Hope and Love. Let’s never forget, we are all in this together.

 
– mu
03/03/2014
 
*Inspired by this quote from Love It Forward by Jeff Brown
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The little light that knows.  www.soulshaping.com/loveitforward

It’s All a Gift…

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“ Someone I loved once gave me a box full of darkness. It took me years to understand that this, too, was a gift.” ~ Mary Oliver

It’s ALL a gift. Shadow/Light. Yin/Yang. The journey of this life experience is never a straight line on level ground. (How boring would that be anyway?) When we honor the ride through dark nights of the soul; through pain, grief, fear, sorrow and weeping or whatever else arises in the moment… maybe, just maybe we can also allow ourselves to enjoy and appreciate the shadow for what it is — an integral part of the whole. Unwrapping the gift of darkness allows light to get in.

mu – 02/15/2014

This Is The Law Of One

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“In truth there is no right or wrong. There is no polarity for all will be, as you would say, reconciled at some point in your dance through the mind/body/spirit complex, which you amuse yourself by distorting in various ways at this time. The distortion is not in any case necessary. It is chosen by each of you as an alternative to understanding the complete unity of thought which binds all things. You are not speaking of similar or somewhat like entities or things. You are everything, every being, every emotion, every event, every situation. You are Unity. You are Infinity. You are Love/Light, Light/Love. You are. This is the Law of One.” – RA

From The Law of One, Elkins, Rueckert, (aka ‘The RA Material’ – not related to the Egyptian god Ra. )

Via  One Temple (Mu’s One Temple Facebook Page)

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